Lions and Tigers and Papers! Oh My!

So with my impending academic doom slowly continuing to march on as the weeks until the end of term count down I am left with nothing to do but to weather the storm. By Wednesday at 11:00 am I will know where I stand (at least that is what my professors have promised). I’m just sick of being sick with this term. I’ve decided to really make an effort to change my mental approach to the term. I’ve kicked all the Emo/ Screamo Music off my play lists and replaced it with Reliant K and other such artists/ bands. The decision to improve my mentality is fine until it is tested by a moment were I am faced with some academic adversity. I’m just sick and tired of being under par…although if University was a golf game I would be rocking….argh!

Anyway…so in a moment of weakness I signed up for the U of L’s womens spring league. So from now until the end of term I will be playing ball Tuesday and Thursday nights. I joined mainly to get in shape because I am really out of shape. Ok so I look like I may be in shape but really cardiovascular wise I am worse then an asthmatic. Tonight was the 1st night and I was really under whelmed with the whole situation. It is totally unfair. Donna Branch in her ultimate wisdom has allowed an “All Horns” team to play by themselves this year as apposed to being separated up between the other teams. This just makes the league a little less fair (but whatever when I get in a bit more shape I will rep well against them). The other problem is that it is supposed to be a 12 and up league with only a few exceptional players playing up. The problem is that Donna, again in her ultimate wisdom, has allowed a team of 7 of the girls I just finished coaching to be in my league on a team to themselves. There are only 2 girls on the team that are in grade 12 and one of the two has a chance of doing anything in the league. The team will get the crap kicked out of them every week. They will be obliterated beyond anything they could comprehend at the moment. It will aid them in realizing that playing in our deep south league is a major step back from basketball in southern Alberta. The girls I was playing with tonight from LCI aka the 4 A wonder (grade 11-12) will make the girls I coached look like a band of well trained ECS kids. I think a few of them may cry at some point after league play. I feel bad but they have to learn some how and they sure as heck didn’t listen to Pat or I when we said it was a horrible idea.

Monday was momentous to say the least so I will just leave a picture as evidence as it is not really my news to spread and I am sure people would rather hear it from the person then from me anyway.

Relient K’s new CD is OUTSTANDING! Please check out “Five score and seven years ago” its amazing. On the other had Switchfoot’s new album is a regression to say the least. I think if it was there first it would be ok…but after “Beautiful Letdown” and “Nothing is sound” this new album just sounds like they were trying to make cash off of their last albums break out performance. And what makes it even worse is that they use faith/ Christianity/ Jesus to try to make their fast cash. At least that is the only reason I can think of for such a bad follow up to a super strong album such as “nothing is sound”.

Wednesday I will have to start working on my Molecular Genetics paper…which I have been avoiding. I don't have scientific paper writing skills. My writing style as glorious lab Mike commented is “too flowery and not concise enough…sentences need to be just to the point. Without a lot of description. If scientist wanted to read descriptive flowery sentences they would go get a fiction book from the library”. So I have some trepidation in regard to this paper. I have chosen to do mRNA editing and the HIV disease. I have 8 papers to read for info which I hope I can extract and put into my own words with out loosing its correctness. The only good thing is that it is due the day bubbles is coming home and when I hand it in I will have nothing to study for but finals which are at the end of the exam period anyway so I will have adequate time with her.

That’s all for now … I think I will go to bed. I hurt all over.
Skakes - Unconditional love and I have a love hate relationship at the moment.

Ann with an E

While I did not eat the 4 L tub of ice cream I did consume a good amount of chocolate milk. The test seemed to go better then the last one. It all depends how she marks the exams. This term all my exams are fully written which make it kind of hard to judge how well you have done to a certain extent. But I’m more then sure this one went well enough…not an A performance but I know I did call I could in the frame of time I had to prepare for it.

Tonight was Anne of Green Gables at Mel’s. Ever since new years (when Mel found out that I had never seen the movie) she has been on my case to watch it with her. So tonight that is what I did. I will admit it is a lot better then I expected. Usually I would classify “period pieces” as a pet peeve of mine so I did enter the evening with some trepidation. However I was pleasantly surprised and ended up enjoying the movie. Ma, Andrew, and Laurel were there as well so it was a fun time. Mel and I also shared soup before along with funeral buns. Awkward but good.

The highlight of the day would have to have been the heart to heart with Mel. That is all I will say.

Skakes

4 L tub of ice cream

I hate and yes I do mean hate this term more then any I have ever had...yes even more then when I had math 30p back in high school and that is saying something. I think I hate it all the more because there is no one to blame for my stupidity but me. It would be pretty easy to blame my professors but when it comes down to it ... its all on me anyway. I have never felt so utterly hopeless and stupid in classes in my life. Aaaaa! After my midterm tomorrow I may choose to eat a 4 L tub of ice cream.

Skakes out ... comic from Natalie Dee

Hair Hair Hair...

So the hair cut was the highlight of the week...other then it the week was pretty much crap. It seems my current hobby is to shoot myself in the foot. A hobby which I soon hope to be rid of.

My Jv bball team won their league last weekend which was awesome. They even had some extra medals so the coaches got one as well. The Sr team did not fare as well Thursday night. To be honest I didn’t think they would win their first game in zones but I thought they would only loose by 10 - 15. However this did not happen. They had what is equivalent to a complete mental break down. They didn’t even look like they had played together all season. Granted we were playing Magrath and the whole town came out to heckle our players...but still there is no excuse for playing the way they did.

Miriam and I met today for ECM planning and have come up with a great Lent idea. Seeing as you're not supposed to use the A*******word or the H*********word during Lent we were having a hard time finding some songs we wanted to use for our service Sunday night. We eventually found some but along the way we came up with this awesome idea. You know how in the song Bingo your not allowed to say a new word every time you repeat the song until it ends in just claps. Well we thought that would be an excellent solution to our current Lenten song issue. Ok so we aren’t really going to do this … but it would make it rather interesting! So Seek Ye First would go a little something like this...

Seek ye first the kingdom of God

And Gods righteousness

And all these things shall be added unto you

Clap, clap clap ccclap, clap clap ccccclap, ccccclap!

Well developmental biology beckons me to crack open a can of hopelessness as I attempt to study for yet another midterm. Skakes out

I am there - James Dillet Freeman – 1947

I am the light and the thoughts in your mind,
I am the sight in your eyes,
I am the life in your body,
I am the feelings you feel in your heart.
I am always at work in your life for your greater good,
although you may not always believe this;
hopefully, your faith in me will grow constant.
You must realize:
"my will is whatever is happening in the present moment".
Within this moment you must think and actwith
integrity, humility and courage,
you must trust in me,
and surrender your will to mine through acceptance.
If you continue to demonstrate
acceptance,integrity, humility, courage and trust,
you will discover the secret of opening your heart to my love.
The greater your faith in me,
the more I am able fill your heart with my love.

I am always with you,
even when you are not able to feel me in your heart.
I love you always.
I surround you with my protecting love,
even when you occasionally forget me.
I listen to your problems,
if you are sincere and receptive, I give you solutions.
I hear your prayers
and answer those which are in the best interest of everyone in your life
including but not limited to, you.

It is I, who grants you the
serenity to accept the things you cannot change,
the courage to change the
things you can
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Eventually you will realize
the samplings of love I bestow on you through others are purposefully
designed to draw you closer to me.
it is only I, who loves you unconditionally,
I am an ever-flowing
fountain of love, peace and joy,
I will never disappoint you;
I will always be with you.
I forgive you;
I nourish you with my
tender mercies.
Remember, I never stop loving you for you are my precious child.

You cannot see Me, yet I am the light you see by.
You cannot hear Me, yet I speak through your voice.
You cannot feel Me, yet I am the power at work in your hands.
I am at work, though you do not understand My ways.
I am at work, though you do not understand My works.

Only in absolute stillness, beyond self,
can you know Me
as I am, and then but as a feeling and a faith.
Yet I am there. Yet I hear.
Yet I answer.
When you need Me, I am there.
Even if you deny Me, I am there.
Even when you feel most alone, I am there.
Even in your fears, I am there.
Even in your pain, I am there.
I am there when you pray and when you do not pray.
I am in you, and you are in Me.
Only in your mind can you feel separate from Me,
for only in your mind are the mists of "yours" and "mine."
Yet only with your mind can you know Me and experience Me.
Empty your heart of empty fears.
When you get yourself out of the way, I am there.
You can of yourself do nothing, but I can do all.
And I am in all.

Though you may not see the good,
good is there, for I am there.
I am there because I have to be, because I am.
Only in Me does the world have meaning;
Only out of Me does the world take form;
only because of Me does the world go forward.
I am the law on which the movement of the stars
and the growth of living cells are founded.

I am the love that is the law's fulfilling
I am assurance.
I am peace.
I am oneness.
I am the law that you can live by.
I am the love that you can cling to.
I am your assurance.
I am your peace
I am one with you.
I am.

Though you fail to find Me,
I do not fail you.
Though your faith in Me is unsure,
My faith in you never wavers,
because I know you,
because I love you.
Beloved, I AM
there.

- James Dillet Freeman – 1947